An End is Almost at Hand

First, I would like to thank one of my readers for taking the time to give some much needed (and very much appreciated) advice.
Second, I just wanna note how odd it is to write about a situation that is so current/ongoing. I guess with Mr. X I was used to writing about all that had already happened instead of what just happened and what might happen. And too, I don't know how he'd feel about me blogging about our "business". Its all anon so I hope thats ok. This is the best place for me to vent or unload my mind instead of going back to him a million times over with the same thing.

Which brings me to my current state. I let Sweetness know that I would email him some of my feelings and concerns. I was so tired of sitting on things/issues and wanted them out in the open for us to discuss and conclude upon. He sent me a text that he did receive and read my email but needed time to respond so as to gather his thoughts. And he said he was thinking alot about me.
Yup.
That's a little scary. Its almost exactly what Mr. X said so long ago when we were on the (at the time unknown to me) brink of departing.
So, I've been preparing myself for a new separation from yet another best friend with whom things have gotten too complicated. I don't even know if that's right to expect the worst. To expect that he would just leave me. But it just feels like the most logical conclusion. If that's how it goes, it will hurt. A lot. But at the same time, I still just want us both to be happy. Even if that means moving on from eachother. I don't know. My mind is in a strange place where its blank and all over the place at the same time. We'll see how it turns out.
Thank you to all who've lent support and words to me in this super crazy time! I'm always appreciative of my readers and commentors. :)

Warm Hearts and Cold Shoulders

I guess I'll start by saying that I hope everyone had a great Valentine's day! I know I'm late, but oh well! Better late than never! I love Valentine's day, always have. Single or not, its just a day to do something nice for someone else, or hell, even yourself! What's wrong with doing something that makes you feel good? I had a great day, the weather was wonderful...and filled with chocolate goodness! My birthday has also come and gone. That was...not so good. I do not enjoy most of the time spent with my family. It just feels forced on both sides. They don't like me, I know and accept it. At least that's over with...

Another thing that has been bothering me is that "friend" of mine that completely blew up and inspired this entry. Of course, after being told that I am wanted in said person's life, I'm left without any further communications. Not even an explaination. Oh well..."friend" doesn't want me to assume they are like Mr. X, but will continue to act as such...Good job convincing me you're not. Pfft. I don't know why I'm letting myself get worked up about it anyway. I guess all I can do is get over it. Move on and if that person decides to open up and talk about things, fine. Otherwise and until then, just gotta wash my hands of them and the situation.