Thursday, December 15, 2011

I don't know what to say.

Well, thank you to all who have been there for me during that whole ordeal with Sweetness.

I just have so much stress in just about every aspect of my life that its just finally taken its toll on me. I shut down for a few days and just let myself cry and cry and try to get it all out of my system so that hopefully soon I can get up, put on my strong face and keep moving forward. That day isn't today though.

I think I just want this year to be done with already. I'd gladly skip over Christmas this year, too.

I had this stupid dream about Douchey. He was just standing in front of me, laughing. 
I don't know. I think I just dreamed of him since its been two years since our trip together and how quickly it all went downhill. Thinking back on it now, I realize all the signs and red flags that I should have paid attention to. I'm just happy he's no longer in my life. 


Just Two Chicks said...

I'm sorry it's been such a rugh year... now it's time for a new year and new beginnings.. for YOU. I think you need to really focus on YOU, and what makes YOU happy, without worrying about having someone "special" in your life. I promise, the more you focus on YOU, the better your chances of finding someone else who will also focus on you... :) You're special, make SURE people know that!

max xavier said...

Sometimes crying it out is all you can do. Give yourself time to mourn, and the permission to move forward even if your feelings for him don't change. Everything is ok in the end. If things aren't ok, it isnt the end.