When My Brain Takes a Breather

After my last post, I've been having trouble thinking of something to blog about. I have felt so much better just letting go of everything from my past relationships. I know with my current situation we do have our ups and downs and at times we are both scared of what this is and where its going. Maybe it shouldn't be like that, but aside from it all, for me anyway, there is still something about it that feels so right.

All That I've Been Holding Onto For So Long

I have been thinking so much about everything, lately. My past, my present and what it means for my future. I know I'll never be able to sleep unless I get it all out now.

Sometimes I wish I could be stronger.
Sometimes I wish I could forget.
Sometimes I wish I never knew.
Sometimes I wish I never saw your smile.
Sometimes I wish I never trusted you.
Sometimes I wish I never was there for you.
Sometimes I wish I never looked.
Sometimes I wish I never gave you so much of me.
Sometimes I wish I could have been everything you wanted.
Despite everything, I can never give up on love.
I can never close myself off to the world or to life.
I can always wish that there is someone who'll love me as much and as fiercely as I love them.
I have hope that there is someone who wants me, all of me, and will take me as I am: scars, tears, sorrow.
Take the bad with the good.
Let me cry. Let me laugh. Let me scream.
Let me be who I am and never want to change me.
I don't need to believe that I am beautiful; just honestly love me because my heart, my soul, my mind is beautiful.
Find me irreplaceable.
Be lost without me.
Have patience with me.
Desire me.
Long for me.
Love me, care for me, be there for me not because I deserve it but because you want to be.
There is someone out there who'll love, respect and be thankful for all that I am and all that I give.
I know. I believe. I have faith

When a King is Queen

Carole King. She's a legend. Enough said! And as much as I love James Taylor, I'm gonna go out on a limb and say that without Carole King, he wouldn't have had as much success.

When All I Need Is a Good Cry...

Tonight's post will be about A Fine Frenzy. She's both cute and beautiful with this amazing ability to write songs about how I've felt. I don't think any other musician has been able to just make me cry out of nowhere while listening to a song. I've been moved before, just not moved to tears. I'm even at a loss for words. I only hope that one day I can form words in such a way with my writing! She has inspired me greatly. The first song I will post is the one that makes me cry (I'm just now realizing its because it fits EXACTLY what's currently going on in my life). The second is my favorite song and the one that first introduced me to her music.

Music to cool down a hot day

Day 3: I'm sticking with the female theme here. Today is Janet Jackson. My love for her goes back to childhood. Her music has definitely evolved over the years, but she's always put out quality songs. She's one of the few artists who can achieve a nice mix of love, passion, lust, strength and a little "See what happens when you mess with me". I love it.

A Week in Music Day 2

So as to continue with my week of music, I want to share two of my absolute favorite Amy Winehouse songs. Its still surreal to me that she's no longer here to grace us with her amazing and never-to-be-matched-again talent. No matter the cause of her death, its still deeply saddening that she and I were the same age. I felt old before but now, I look at her and think 'Wow, she was so young'. It made me realize that I, too, am young. I have my whole life ahead of me yet and it can be taken as quickly as it was given. Live a life that's proactive, not reactive, right? There are many lessons to be learned here. I hope her situation can be a wake-up call to others. Help is ALWAYS available.
I now hop off my soap box and end the PSA to share my two favorite songs. These are not just lyrical genius, but so well sung and with such passion and intensity that even if you can't relate, you still feel it.

*as a general disclaimer, I do not own the rights to these songs or any previous or future posts.

Setting Crazy to Sound

Ok, sooo I'm taking a break (gasp) from talking about the mess that is my life. I know, I know, crazy! I'm just trying to preserve my sanity and I really wanna make it work (or see if it works).
Instead this week, I think I'll talk about music. I does play a HUGE part of my life. Maybe I'll make it a more regular thing to include music in the blog. I'm thinking a theme week here. Probably female musicians that I simply cannot get enough of!
Adele is an AMAZING artist whose talent is endless. She's got lots of soul and knows how to bring it with every song she sings. Its crazy that she suffers from stage fright! You'd never really guess. Love, love, love her! These are my two favorite songs. Rolling in the Deep from her album "21" and her cover of "Make You Feel My Love"