Yeah, twice in one day! I just had to come back.
For the first time in a really long time, I cried.
I realized I don't want to be a coward. I don't want him to vanish. I don't want us to not be a part of each other's lives.
Its making me tear up again to even think about writing this, but, I don't just want him to be a part of my life, I need him to be.
For a long time now, he's been such a major source of support. He's listened to me, even if it was something so minor that I blew out of proportion. He's just let me cry on the phone and never acted like I was bothering him.He let me have crazy rants (even about him). He makes me feel special. He makes me feel loved. He just makes me feel.
And I think that I wouldn't be struggling so much with all of this if he wasn't a HUGE part of my life. He's beyond important to me. It feels like he's right here with me, when he's soooo far away.
I hate that right now he feels so far away.
He's my best friend.