Monday, July 18, 2011

When the wheels of the brain turn, the tom-tom of the heart stops beating

There are somethings that are getting incredibly frustrating lately. They are out of my control though. I have very few regrets, but I regret letting a certain situation get to the point it has to eventually make me feel the way I do. Its horrible, aggravating and just incredibly heartbreaking. Then again, I might've let myself become those things. Maybe I do have control. I want it to stop. I need it to stop. I hate having too much back and forth with people.

You do or you don't
You will or you won't
It is or it isn't
I am or I am not
Just pick one and, please, stick with it
Or it all has to stop


The Bipolar Diva said...

you're reading my mind.

Just Two Chicks said...

I'm sorry... I totally understand and it's SO hard! You DO have control over certain things... in my comment to you in your other blog, I said I've finally let it go... sometimes that's the only control you have in order not to be totally nuts!! I worry, worry, worry, stress, stress, stress, over things people say, do, how they perceive me, do they like me, etc, et, people who are close, distant, employers... It goes on and on.

I know letting it go is easier said than done... I sat the other night and tried to MAKE myself stop thinking about the things that were stressing me... then the dog came up with a toy for me to throw for him and I realized that while I was throwing that toy, I wasn't thinking about stuff... silly and dumb I know, but it felt so good... SO, I've been out in the heat, walking/running... exercising, focusing on little things... reading books, reading my favorite blogs :) It all helps.

Good luck!!!

Velvet_Heaven said...

Thanks for the comments! I always look for distractions. I definitely have been jogging and walking and letting my worries go with every drop of sweat! I totally get it! :)